Pain and disappointment is a heavy burden and can come from a very deep place in one’s heart, even if you have built strong walls to protect it. It is the feeling that (no matter what you do, even if you tried your best) it is not enough…it can even make you feel that “you” are not enough. (Don’t believe it for a second!) Ironically, some of the people whom are supposed to be the closest to us, and most trusted, can be the ones who can cause the deepest heartache; they can be one’s harshest, most unforgiving critic; they carry expectations that can become twisted in reality or perception… and sometimes, anger can make one deaf to reason, and blind to the truth. Family disagreements, if not kept in check, are toxic and can grow to become permanent “holes” in one’s life. If you care at all, you must try to repair the damage; but if you have tried, and tried again and again, then you must accept what cannot be changed.
“Anger is like a strong wind; it calms down after a while, but some of the branches are already broken”– Rumi