I am a work in progress. I want to be strong(er). I am trying to “build a better boat”… one that doesn’t sink in rough waters, or crack under pressure; one that can withstand the dark and scary storms that life brings, sometimes without warning. I am not perfect and I have made mistakes that I wish I could change… but here’s what I know… I can’t change the past, and tomorrow is never promised. God willing, I wake up each day with a fresh start and another chance to get it “right”.
We (all) have absolutely no control over how others feel, or what they say, or do. We are only responsible for our own actions. Being accountable to what we “put out” into this world is very important. A flower cannot grow in darkness. Owning our thoughts, feelings, successes, and failures are things that can never be taken away from us; they are a part of who we are, like it or not…and no one can truly know how it feels, unless they are “us”. No one has the right to judge or take away that which makes us who we are, and what we believe; “do not judge, or you too, will be judged” (Matthew 7:1-6).
We each have a path that we must take in life; sometimes we are surrounded by family and friends, and sometimes we must take that path alone. I am not afraid.
Better Boat (lyrics)
I ain’t lonely, but I spend a lot of time alone
More than I’d like to, but I’m ok with stayin’ home
My how the last few months have changed
I’m smilin’ more despite the pain
I breathe in, I breathe out
Got friends to call who let me talk about
What ain’t workin’, what’s still hurtin’
All the things I feel like cussin’ out
Now and then I let it go, I ride the waves I can’t control
I’m learning how to build a better boat
Written by: Travis Meadows, Liz Rose
Performed by Kenny Chesney (2018)